Why am I so cynical?
Mood:  not sure
Ok,
So, we took Audrey to Friendly's tonight at her request to celebrate her 3rd birthday (big party on Sunday). The waitress kept commenting on how beautiful our kids are. That is so nice and I agree with her :>), but this was the thought running in the back of my head...

"My kids cost $60k, they better be cute!!!"

Isn't that awful. Not that I think if they were ugly I'd want my money back. In fact, I doubt I could ever think they were ugly, even if they made strangers faint or scream and run in horror ;>).

My children are the result of three years and five rounds of fertility treatment (yup, that's about 1,000,000 shots in the ass and about 17 doctors placing instruments and God knows what else in a personal area.) Luckily their conception was funded by Blue Cross Blue Shield or they wouldn't be here at all.

Why is some of my brain just processing this crap now....I had my last FET nearly two years ago. ARGH....more later.

Ho-hum
Mood:  lazy

Why is my daughter giving up her naps! She may not need them anymore, but I really do! Life was good when her and her brother would nap together. Now she just lays in her crib, singing and talking and laughing....for a while.........and then it gets quiet. At first I thought she was asleep. NOPE! She does all sorts of fun stuff like removing her diaper, or picking apart the pages of her books. Sometimes she likes to strip the bed...jsut to shake things up for me.

I'm not ready for no nap!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I need the mental break of knowing they are both tucked in their cribs and I can have more than 30 seconds before someone cries or falls or breaks something.

::::::::sigh:::::::

Mom culture
Mood:  a-ok
Hello,
New to this whole blogging endeavor. I'll see how it works out. All I know is that I need to get some stuff out of my brain and maybe writing out in this format will help (shrug).

Let's see.....I'm a stay at home Mom of two kids, and I love it, I really do, except for the days when I really want to tear my hair out, or leave my family locked in the house and take a long trip (not that I would actually do this!). I don't need any of you curious readers (which I am sure will number the thousands, ha!), worrying about the welfare of my kids!

One of the hardest things about being a stay at home Mom is this weird Mom sub-culture. I belong to several Mom's club/playgroup/story hour/gymboree/blah-di-blah groups designed to help you meet other Mom's while stimulating and nuturing your little darlings. Doesn't it sound like some kind of suburban utopia?! Let me dispel the myth. These things are WEIRD! I can't be the only one who feels this way. I feel like I spend my entire life now standing around awkwardly trying to fit in to the new crowd. Am I the only one who feels like high school never really ends? Things are pretty much the same. There are the "cool Moms". Boy, they've got it together. In great shape no matter how many kids....always dressed well, no jeans and t-shirt for these ladies! Make-up and hair done, even if just for a trip to the grocery store. Kids are dressed in the cutest clothes and are always well-behaved. The other Mom's sort-of form themselves around the "cool Moms" like a bizarre conglomerate, trying to be part of the crowd. Then there are the "funky Moms". You know, the ones with no make-up, hair pulled back, rumply clothes, still breastfeeding a 3 yr old and telling you about organic meat and baby-wearing. Then there is me. Make-up and hair done most days, fitting into some pre-pregnancy clothes, trying to get my kids to eat healthy but failing a majority of the time. Where do I fit? I can't seem to find my catagory....maybe I live in the wrong town!